havent been doing this for awhile

Aaah yes. Blogging...
I guess I should talk about uni.
I kinda regret getting my own AutoCAD cos I miss going to campus at night and doing work in the computing rooms simply because its fun to freak out with other people.
Plus I wouldnt have to wait for Mondays and Thursdays to get feedback. I'm begining to hate group discussions because people are kinda unhelpful (except for the tutor) and they kinda stare at each other awkwardly. Its the prospect of saying something stupid you see. Not a very laid back atmosphere. That would be nothing compared to 'panel' or whatever they call it. Thats where you actually present your work to a panel of judges who are actual architects o.o
We have architects coming to our discussions too. Ours is called Peter Armstrong and he designed NIDA. Its a building which got the Green star rating. Guess who funded the project? Mel Gibson.
Oh yea and Peter said to split my building in half to improve ventilation. Ok you're the man. Green Star rating o.o
Now if I can remember what he said about NIDA. The stairs were put there not only for aesthetics. They help ventilation in that when the sun strikes them they radiate heat up creating convection currents which improve ventilation and expels heat from the building. The louvers are to filter light into the stage but I cant remember if they help ventilation as well. They should though. The main reason form putting them in should be to control the movement of air. I'm guessing theres some atrium behind them which opens up. The negative pressure on the wind shadow should then suck the air out from the openings. I cant tell which of the glass windows actually swing open.
Ok just to clear this up and besides i need to write this down somewhere
How to control wind movement (the crappy version)
1)The first way is create an clear path for air flow(no barriers, open planning etc)
Oh as always the building should be facing the prevailing breeze.
The roof may be tilted toward the windward side of the building to help increase the pressure gradient (the steeper it is the better the air circulation) as you know if air has to travel a longer distance it speeds up, therefore if the roof is pitched the negative pressure at the windshadow(sheltered area) is increased, and it can 'suck' air out of the building better. (for this condition to work the windows/openings on both side must be open)

2)(you'll need a little imagination for this one)
say you had to openings or vents at the windshadow of the building. One running horizontally at the top near the roof and one at floor level. (and imagine that the ones facing the windward side are closed) I'm a little sketchy on how this one works but at least the diagram is clear in my mind. The negative pressure at the windshadow sucks the air out of the building, right? This happens at the opening at the top partly because warm air rises and this works just fine since we are talking about expelling heat through natural ventilation. Now that air is displaced by the air entering in through the opening at the bottom. So since cold air is denser than warm air we are displacing heat with cool air. The negative pressure from the windward side creates the negative pressure on the inside which sucks the air into the building. So to close one of the openings would eliminate the pressure gradient there would be no circulation of air.

3) Now imagine on both sides of the building you were to close the top openings and leave the bottom ones open. This would create convection currents(i sure hope the terms are right) Hot air rises and falls when it cools so that is the circulation of air inside. Pretty mild and you probably wont feel the breeze as you would in condition 1 or 2. Some people say this is pretty weak. Plus the air being sucked out of the building should be cooler air. So this condition should be for VERY windy days and its more to do with creating a still space on the inside but at the same time allow for some circulation to happen. (just not very much)

Right now I'm writing a 2500-3500 word essay...not doing much in terms of studio work cos i have no ideas. After the essay is due i have a presentation. That week I have a VERY important presentation for Modern Architecture History also worth 40% and the last computing assignment. After that i have the abstract for the presentation AND it'll be folio week AARGH. I am so screwed. I cant think of how i'll do my studio work while doing the other projects. OMG i just want to pass. Here i was thinking of trying to get a Distinction again after the crap studio manager from last semester ruined my life.

look

I love my new garden^^

Phew

Finally a break^^

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Esther
I guess it shouldnt have come as a suprise
I'm just surprised that I'm not angry anymore. Or sad or lonely. But I guess that no matter what you are feeling it doesnt matter once you are alone. So I'm in my room again thinking that maybe I am what you said I am. I guess we did fail you in a way. But you dont realise that some people are content with who they are. You have always been a strong person and you can handle yourself. I'm only sorry that Cain had to receive the shock of his life. That boy had a second hand ego he inherited from you. I was sad for him but mostly I think he deserved it. I've always felt useless so its no big shock from me so I'm not even slighted. I know you didnt mean it and I'll always have this emptyness to run away to.
Cain should have realised that he shouldnt have based his self worth of you. It was a plucky thing to do really. You just cant base your self worth on what someone thinks of you. he is like you 10-20 years ago but he. isnt. you. He's only like you but less assured. I think he realises that but thats how he fills up his ego. It was too big an epiphany he had to go through when he realised that he's no better than the rest of us to you.
I know I'm not even like you. I dont have those qualities that make you admirable. I have to be my own person even if I end up failing. I cant be like HER and be defined by what I am not. Shes who she isnt. I think she must hate herself for that. I cannot be fixated on you anymore. I can replace you with anyone else as a solution either. I'll just have to be me even if its someone I dont like. I am not a shadow. I have a form and whatever I do in this world can change it. I will not be paled by your light. I know I'm not brilliant. I'm even less of who I thought I was. But I've come to realise that you have your darker shades too. You are beating yourself over it now. But even I have a right to be my own failure. I wont let you take my hand through this life. Let me walk in the darkness alone, I can move ahead on my own.